Splish splash, I was taking a bath
drawn from the blood of my enemies
after I killed them
and stole their pigs and their women
and sold their children
to the farthest corners of the land.
Ever shall the wind blow cold
over their graves,
unmarked and alone.
Looking back, all that I see is your face,
mired by all of your thorns.
I cannot say why I ever loved you
But I'm glad I learned what I know now:
I loved you too long,
loved you too long.
My blood churned with lust for your companionship.
Invisible to you just ten steps away,
I learned what I'm glad I know now:
I loved you too long, loved you too long.
May I take solace in a future--
one without you.
Without you.
Lashed to my neck was a leash made of thorns
thriving on your approval.
I was lost, last to leave seeing that I was scorned,
For all knew what I now know:
I loved you too long, loved you too long,
drew wretched life from your odi
Hell hath no greater fire
than the flames which burn me
welling from my heart.
I know these flames.
I know them well.
They are my Hell
which, even now, remains unquelled.
I'll never quench
this haunting stench
which even now
is all I smell.
Mistakes
have ruled all my life.
They've authored all my strife,
encased me in this shell.
Now
I'll never find my joy.
There really is no point
in hunting what I've felt.
All
I think about is you.
Guilt is my newest muse,
regret my newest Hell.
Now
I finally know the ire,
the unrelenting fire,
that's hatred of the self.